Please Don't Leave
Written By: Terra
 

Rating: MA

Disclaimer: Characters are not mine. I DO NOT own any of them. I make no money for anything I write.... I only do this for my twisted mind.

Summary: Buffy and Angelus meet up 5 years after he events of Please Love Me.

AN: Thanks to all those that sent me feedback on Please Love Me. It was my first story and the response that I got from it was amazing. This next part goes out to all of you. Please continue to let me know what you think.


Thanks to my wonderful friend and beta, Cathy!!! I couldn't have done any of this without you! *HUGS*


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Chapter 1

It had been five years and still her thoughts always returned to him. The barriers she had put up to keep him out had failed. Angelus had found a way through to her heart, and she couldn�t shut him out now. However, he had taken her heart in his hands, and shred it to pieces.
 
He had given her a choice, and she walked away to prevent any more heartache. The fact that he had never found her wasn�t surprising to her. She hadn�t hidden well, but he obviously didn�t really want her.
 
After arriving in Boston, she had started using Anne, her middle name. Slowly, she began building a life for herself. She started waitressing at some dumpy diner where she met Toni. Grateful to get out of the dingy hotel she was in, she accepted Toni�s offer and moved in with her.
 
With a job and a decent place to live, the idea of going to college entered her mind. Buffy had always wanted to be a fashion designer. And so finally having full control over her life, she enrolled.
 
Graduating top of her class provided her with a job straight out of school. The gowns and other designs she created were a success. After about a year, a small yet prestigious design firm offered her a job. She had accepted the job, but only if they offered Toni a job as an assistant or receptionist.
 
Her life was perfect, or almost anyway, only love was missing. Or more specifically, a man that she could love, and who would love her in return. There had been plenty of dates, and a few boyfriends over the years, but none had lasted longer than a month. They just never measured up to her standards. There was always something about them that was just wrong.

She�d had never been able to admit it, to herself, but she compared them all to Angelus. Nobody could ever make her tingle the way he could.
 
�Damnit why can�t I just let him go?!,� she thought.
 
If only she hadn�t of woken up and heard him talking to Spike that morning. They would be married and living happily together.
 
�Would we really be happy though, or would he be cheating on me? Hell he probably would have been bored with me by now and tossed me aside,� she thought. �Why did I fall in love with him? Why did I give in to him that night? Well, at least I will always have that one night of perfection with him. I should really see a shrink about this. The middle of the damn day and I am drifting off thinking of him. ARGH!! Think about something else, like say your work!�
 
BUZZ! BUZZ!
 
She sighed as she was pulled from her thoughts by the sound of her intercom.
 
�Stop doing that damnit! It�s over! He really didn�t want you!� Buffy said aloud.
 
�Yes?� she asked.
 
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�Top Design, this is Toni. How can I help you?� she chirped.
 
�Holland Manners,� the deep voice said.
 
�He�s in a meeting with his designers this morning. Can I take a message?� she asked.
 
�Tell him Angelus O�Shea called. I need a gown designed for my fianc�,� he said.
 
�Okay sir, is there a call back number I can give him?� she questioned.
 
�He knows it already. Just tell him to put a rush on it,� he said coldly.
 
�I�ll give him the message the moment he gets out. Have a nice day,� she smiled.
 
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�Mr. Manners, here are your messages. Mr. O�Shea said to put a rush on it,� Toni told her boss.
 
�Mr. O�Shea? Do you mean Angelus O�Shea?� at her nod, he spoke again, "Get him back on the phone right away. We have a file on him already, so get the number from there.�
 
Toni made her way quickly to the filing cabinets. She had seen that look in her boss�s eye only a few times before. The client had money, and lots of it, so her boss wouldn�t take any screw-ups on this one.
 
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�Mr. Manners, I have Angelus O�Shea on the line,� she told him.
 
Holland picked up the phone, and hit the button that would allow him to speak with Angelus. �Good afternoon Angelus. How are you?� he asked.
 
�I�m good. Did your receptionist tell you I needed a new gown designed?�
Angelus asked.
 
�Yes, she did. What occasion is the gown needed for?� Holland questioned.
 
�It�s for an engagement party. I want a dress that will take not only *her* breath away, but everyone else�s in the room as well. I want her to stand out from every other girl in the room,� Angelus told him.
 
�That�s not a problem. Do you want one similar to the last one that we designed for you? Also, I need the measurements and color that you want the gown,� Holland said.
 
�No, I want this dress nothing like the last one. I�ll fax over the measurements to you this afternoon. Also, you know I want your top designer on this. As for style and color, we�ll go over that once I get there,� Angelus said as he ran his hand through his hair.
 
�Our best designer is somewhat new to the scene, but the work she does is unbelievable. You can describe what you want to her and she can bring it to life,� he said proudly.
 
�Good...good. I�ll be announcing my engagement at this party, and I know my fianc� will want the best. I�ll be arriving in two days time to help,� Angelus said.
 
�I�ll have Toni reserve your usual room, and have the limo there to pick you up from the airport,� Holland said.
 
�Holland, you know if this goes well then Top Design will be designing and dressing my wedding. I know that it will be the biggest event for you yet, and just what your firm needs to really take off,� Angelus said smugly.
 
�Don�t sound so smug Angelus. Of course, this is what we need to get on the radar and some better clientele. Angelus, have we ever let you down on any gown we have designed for you?� He pointed out.
 
�No you haven�t, so lets not start now,� he chuckled,� Well Holland, I�ll see you in two days.�
 
�Okay, and Angelus, the gown will be gorgeous,� he reassured him.
 
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�Toni, can you get Anne and send her into my office?� Holland asked.
 
�Yes, sir,� she answered.
 
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BUZZ! BUZZ!
 
She sighed as she was pulled from her thoughts by the sound of her intercom.
 
�Stop doing that damnit! Its over! He really didn�t want you!� Buffy said aloud.
 
�Yes?� she asked.
 
�Mr. Manners would like to see you in his office,� Toni told her.
 
�Thanks Toni! Oh and I hope spaghetti is good for dinner tonight,� Buffy stated.
 
�Since it�s your turn to cook, and we had sandwiches the last time, I assumed that�s what we were having,� Toni laughed.
 
�Ha Ha, very funny! I told you before I moved in that I couldn�t cook,� she huffed.
 
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�You wanted to see me Mr. Manners?� Buffy asked.
 
�Yes, please come in and sit down,� Holland answered.
 
�Okay. Have you got a new assignment for me?� she asked.
 
�Anne, you have been with us for what, two months now?� he asked. When she nodded he continued, �You have done some wonderful work for us in that time.�
 
�Mr. Manners you�re making me blush. Thank you again for the chance to do all of this. It�s always been my dream to be a fashion designer,� she blushed.
 
�Call me Holland. And you�re very welcome. You deserve those compliments because of the truly amazing work that you do. I�m just extremely happy that you do that work for me now, and not my competitors,� he laughed.
 
�I�m glad to be here and a part of your team,� she smiled.
 
�Well, I believe that I may have the job that could make not only this firm, but your career, a huge success,� Holland gushed.
 
�I was hoping you had a new design for me, because I finished up the other two this weekend. Of course, I wasn�t thinking you would be giving me a make it or break it designed,� she gulped.
 
�I think you�re up for this challenge. I won�t give you any other designs though, until this one is completed. We have six weeks to make this gown, and it has to be magnificent,� Holland told her.
 
�Six weeks, for *one* design? Holland, with all due respect sir, but you know that I work faster than that. I can handle a bigger workload than just one design, even if it is a make it or break it deal,� she insisted.
 
�This client is extremely important to all of us. We do a lot f business with him, and I would like it to continue. The firm that handled him before us failed to give him what he wanted, and he had them out of business within six months. He is a very well known man and could bring us a much better clientele if he is pleased with us,� Holland explained.
 
Sighing she gave in, �Fine, if it�s that important, then I won�t work on anything else.�
 
�Thank you. If this goes well and the client and his fianc� like the gown you design, then things will get better for us. We�ll get to design all the gowns and tuxedos for his wedding. To get to design for such a high profile event like that will do wonders, for not only the company, but for you as well,� Holland said happily.
 
�Do you know anything about the style, color, or measurements for the gown yet?� Buffy asked.
 
�Toni should have the fax with the measurements for the dress later this afternoon. As for the color style and color, I�m not sure yet. The client will be here in two days to work on this with you,� Holland answered.
 
�So should I try to get a few sketches together to show him? That usually helps bring out what they want in the gowns,� she asked.
 
�Yes, go ahead and work up three sketches. Just for your reference, he is a strong, powerful, and rich man. He always gets what he wants. The previous gown�s we have designed for him were classy, but with a touch of sexiness to them,� Holland stated.
 
�Okay, I�ll get started on them right away. But why do I all of a sudden have that �Pressure Much� feeling though?� she laughed.
 
�Pressure, yes lots, but you can handle it. He�ll be here at 1:30 on Wednesday. Have Toni add you in at 11:00 that morning, so we can go over the sketches,� Holland spoke.

 

Chapter 2
 
Wednesday morning rolled around faster than she had thought it would. She had two of the sketches done, but still needed a third one. Her mind kept wondering off to the engagement gown that Angelus had gotten for her. It had been so beautiful and glamorous.
 
Before she knew it, her watch went off letting her know it was time for the meeting with Holland.
 
Looking down she had completed a third sketch while she was daydreaming. It looked similar to hers but with several changes. It was a bit shorter, and the bottom flowed more than hers did. The color she had used was not the bright emerald that he had chosen, but a sadder color. Sapphire.
 
Struggling to hold back the tears that had formed in her eyes, she stood and collected the three sketches.
 
Holland had loved the first two that she had shown him. The design that was similar to hers had made him a little unsure. By the end, though he decided to let the client see all of them.
 
�Anne, I believe that he will pick one of them. Of course, knowing him, he will have some changes,� Holland said as he stood.
 
�After the things you said the other day, I had assumed that,� Buffy laughed.
 
�Go take your lunch break and prepare yourself for this meeting,� Holland instructed.
 
�You make it sound like I am about to met my maker,� she giggled.
 
�Well, many people do think that Angelus O�Shea is our maker,� Holland pointed out.
 
Buffy sat straight up in her seat as her face turned white. She was trying to register what Holland had said to her about Angelus. Her hands began to sweat, and she her head was spinning.
 
�Anne, are you okay?� Holland asked worriedly.
 
�Um�.Yes, just a bit light-headed. I need to get a bite to eat,� she whispered.
 
�If you�re sure you�re okay. Go on and get yourself some food so you feel better. Please be back by 1:15 though,� Holland said.
 
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Sitting on a bench in the park, Buffy wondered how to get out of this mess. She hadn�t seen him in five years, and now their there first meeting is because she�s designing his fianc�s engagement gown.
 
She couldn�t believe that she was actually going to be seeing him. Getting out of this situation was not going to be an option. Her career, that she had worked the last five years for, was on the line. Telling herself that he had moved on, and so should she, was not helping.
 
�Professional. It�s a professional meeting, so get yourself together. Go in there and sell your design �..to the man you love.� she thought.
 
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As she walked into the conference room, her heart began to ache. Her eyes began to water as she thought about their time together. She had become just another notch in his belt, and then tossed aside like a common whore.

She kept hearing his conversation with Spike over and over again. That it had been nothing special to him. That night had become her most bittersweet moment. It had been the most incredible night of her life, but the next morning he was a changed man.
 
Angrily, she swiped at the tears that had begun to fall. She must be strong, and hold herself together. At least until she got home and could have a proper break down.
 
�Anne, the limo is ten minutes away. Do you have everything in order?� Holland asked.
 
�Yes, sir. I�ve not failed you yet, and I don�t plan to now,� she pointed out.
 
�I know, but Angelus is a very hard to please man. He can make or break, not only this company, but your career as well. Out of all the designers I have though, you are the one that can pull this off,� he smiled at her.
 
�Thank you! Okay, that pressure thing again. Anyway, you need to go so I can finish setting the fabrics up,� Buffy stated.
 
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She jumped when she heard the knock on the door. She took a deep breath in to try and calm herself. Buffy stood, and ran her hand down her skirt to smooth it out.
 
�Anne, Mr. O�Shea is here,� Toni�s voice floated through the door.
 
Running her hand across her face, the reality of the situation hit her.
 
�Oh God!� she thought.
 
Finally, she began to the door, and reaching down with her trembling hand, she turned the handle. She swung the door open harder than expected, and it slammed into the wall. Turning on her heels, she opened the door slightly to check the wall for damage.
 
�Don�t be nervous. I don�t bite, unless asked to,� his deep voice was like a shock wave across her body.
 
All her breath left her body, as she began to panic. It felt as though her stomach had hit the floor, and someone was stomping on it.
 
Clearing her throat she said, �Sorry, just don�t know my own strength.�
 
Angelus stopped dead in his tracks as her voice washed over him, and turned around slowly to see if it really was her. Her back was facing him as she inspected the wall for any damage, so he couldn�t see her face. Slowly he dragged his eyes up and down her body, eyes widening infinitesimally at the realization that it could indeed be her.

He had spent five years thinking of her often. Well, �often� wasn�t quite right, since he thought of her daily. Of course, not a single person knew that when he was drinking in his study at night, he thought of her.
 
Realizing that he was still standing there staring at her, he shook his head. He didn�t want to make a fool out of himself if it wasn�t her. �So, Holland said you would have some sketches for me to look at,� he said, as he tried to catch a glimpse of her face.
 
�Yes, they�re on the table. Excuse me for just a second,� Buffy said, as she hurried out of the room.
 
If that wasn�t her, then this designer was sure acting weird. Looking down at the table there was a binder labeled �Sketches�. Angelus sat down at the table, and opened the book so he could have something to do until she got back. 

The first gown was nice, but didn�t jump out at him. The second gown was excellent, but wasn�t right for a figure like Cordy�s. The third was magnificent, but seemed somewhat familiar to him. He would need to make a few changes to it though because the color she had chosen for it was blue, and he didn�t like it. They would have to make it a different color, but he wasn�t sure which one just yet.

Looking up at the ceiling, he sighed. The person that had been haunting him for years could be in this building. Buffy had turned and walked away from him without even a second thought. She didn�t even have the decency to tell him where she was going. Six days had passed before he received the letter from her, but still with no location.
 
She had taken some money out of his account, and then shredded his card. He didn�t care about the money that she had taken, just that he didn�t mean enough to her to tell him where she was. Two months ago, he had started getting envelopes every week that just had one hundred dollars inside. There was no name or return address on it, nor any letter accompanying it. He knew that it was from her though, because nobody else owed him money. Of course, that was because he loved his money too much to let anyone have it. She had been the only person to get money from him.
 
Although, for some reason he hated getting those envelopes from her every week. It meant that she wanted to pay him off so there would be no ties. Even though they hadn�t spoken for five years, it was something that still connected them.
 
Running his hand through his hair, he got angry. �What the hell is taking her so long?� he growled.
 
�Sorry! I�m right here. I just needed to grab another fabric,� she murmured.
 
Slowly looking up, his eyes connected with hers. He opened his mouth to talk, but snapped it shut again. As the lines in his forehead became deeper and his frown got wider, she decided she needed to do something.
 
�Did you get to look at the sketches?� she asked.
 
He blinked his eyes to make sure it was really her he was seeing.
 
�Buff,� snapping his mouth closed and regaining his senses,� Yes, I saw them.�
 
�Were any of them to your liking, Mr. O�Shea?� she questioned.
 
�The third one was okay, but needs some changes done to it,� he said, as his voice took on a hard edge.
 
�Of course. Do you know what things that you would like to change?� she asked politely.
 
�Perhaps a new designer,� he said coldly.
 
Her head snapped back up as she looked at him with surprise. �Wh---what? You can�t do that!� she exclaimed.
 
�I can do whatever I want. And I do believe that working with you *isn�t* what I want,� Angelus boomed.
 
�Well, if you really don�t want to work with me, then that�s fine. I was hoping that you could be as professional as I planned to be, to get through this. Our past should not effect how we work,� she hissed.
 
�Past! Well, I would be afraid if things got a little rough you may just up and disappear on me,� he spat.
 
�You told me to just go! Arrrrr!" Buffy yelled as she threw her hands up in the air, "Look, you want the *best* gown, by the *best* designer, and *that* is
*me*. I can make the best gown for you, and then we would never have to see each other again,� she yelled.

�The best?" he scoffed. "Well my dear *Anne*, not for long. Your precious career will go to hell when I�m through with it,� he smirked.
 
She turned around as she fumed over his statement. Knowing the truth behind it, she wondered why he gave a shit about her and her career.
 
She turned back around and asked him, �Mr. O�Shea why do you care if I make this dress or not? I thought you didn�t give a shit about me.�
 
Smirking at her he said, �I don�t care. It�s just that I don�t feel that you�re the best person to design my fianc�s dress. Oh wait, she's actually a friend of yours. Cordelia? Knowing this is for our engagement party, I figured it would bring back too many memories.�
 
The surprise she felt at hearing who he was marrying never showed. �The thing is, that our past is just that � our past. I don�t think it�s something that matters to either of us. I am professional enough to work with you, and make an amazing dress. Are you mature, and man enough, to do the same,� she challenged him.
 
He sat there with his fingers against his head. Spending some time with her was very appealing, but he didn�t want her to know that.
 
�I could squash your career if I choose to, you know,� at her nod he continued,� but I think I would prefer to see if *my* hard earned money was well spent.�
 
She rolled her eyes when she realized he was referring to the three thousand dollars. �It was well worth it! Now, can you tell me what things you�d like to change about the gown,� she asked.
 
�Well, I can tell you, but not until dinner tonight. I�ve traveled all day and need some rest,� he smirked.
 
�OH NO! I don�t think so. Working hours are 8 to 5, and not a minute later,� she said, as she put her hands on her hips.
 
�I do believe, *I* call the shots here. If you want to keep your career, then pick me up at 7:30,� he smiled that �make your toes curl� smile.
 
He stood and began walking to the door. �See you tonight Buffy,� he whispered in her ear as he passed.
 
She shivered as his breath caressed her ear. Jumping when the door clicked closed, she sighed. Only fifteen minutes had passed, but it seemed much longer. Angelus could rip her insides apart like no other. He made her feel small and unworthy of him.
 
�How can I spend an evening with him without falling apart?� she thought.
 
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He leaned against the door as he closed it. Seeing her beautiful face again, and not throwing her against the wall, had taken so much out of him. He never knew he had so much self-control. He didn�t understand why this smart-mouthed girl got to him so much. She always made him feel like a teenage boy when he was around her.
 
�Dinner! I hope I can get through this without acting like a fool,� he thought.

 

TBC.....

 

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